Tuesday, September 29, 2009

a question of balance

Happiness is not a matter of intensity but of balance, order, rhythm and harmony.

Thomas Merton

I can't take credit for this photograph. I took quite a few pictures of the sunset on the Pamlico River while on vacation but none as amazing as this one taken by my Daughter In law.

I enjoyed our family reunion. All of Bubbie's Babies in one place. We had a wonderful time.

I have been doing so well I find I have been wearing a permanent smile. People have taken notice, wondering what I'm smiling at. I guess when you've been beaten down with heavy limbs, pain, and fatigue, a genuine smile doesn't come easily. I feel renewed. Having been there and now experiencing the other side I can't help but be ecstatic. I'd say that I am well aware of the extremes.

I am now being reminded of keeping a balance. Libra that I am, extremes are more familiar, but balance is necessary to my well being as a whole.

I've gone from barely able to ambulate with a cane and sometimes walker, to walking with an assured gait with just some discomfort and numbness. I can handle that!

I have gone from a sedentary life, dragging myself from one task to the next, even foregoing tasks for naps, to working a new part time job and functioning without an outward sign of chronic illness.

I went from taking daily or weekly injections and handfuls of pharmaceuticals, to taking one daily med (plaquenel) and my vitamins and supplements.

I have already lost 20 of the pounds I packed on over the last shadowy 5 years and now see the glimmer of who I was and want to be. I'm taking better care of myself, carefully choosing my options everyday.

I am not so naive that I don't know that all of this new found well being could change in a heartbeat. That's life...and part of the grand illusion. But I do believe I have a new perspective that will enable me to keep a healthier balance, order, rhythm and harmony in body, mind and spirit.

I regret having not been actively posting to this blog. I do read your posts. I care about you all, wish you all the best and try to stay in touch on that terribly addicting FB site.
I've been busy working, painting, walking , smiling and enjoying the scenery.

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You inspire me...oh, hush now...YOU do!

Jen said...

YAY! Enough said :)

Anne said...

I'll catch up to ya on that terribly addicting FB site.

Have Myelin? said...

I am glad for you. =)

Anne said...

Haven't seen you in a while online. I hope you are still doing as well as you are in this post.

I'm doing ok.....keeping on with keeping on.

Blog again soon to update how you are doing,

PS I am still terribly addicted to FB games and http://apps.facebook.com/mesmogames/rpgArcadeHome?entrySource=bookmark

for token based challenge games.

See you soon,

TickledPink said...

Such wonderful news!! It's always inspiring and gives one hope to read about someone with this dreaded disease actually feeling BETTER for a change.

Wishing you all the best!

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